Something I really hate
I find pretty much any woman or female person attractive. Big girls, thin girls, girls with dicks, girls with vaginas, smooth girls, hairy girls, plain girls, stylish girls, black, white, blue, green, it doesn’t really matter to me. Pretty much as long as she’s not unhealthy looking (like meth adidict skinny or jabba the hut levels of fat) I will find a woman sexy.
However with males, its an entirely different story. I often feel a little bit guilty for how harshly I judge men exclucively on their looks. Short of the few extremely well toned supermodel-esque sex gods I see, I find guys pretty unatractive. I’m pretty certain its rooted in how misandristic I am. Since guys would more often than not treat me like shit or just generally make me uncomfortable with their very loud oppinions on anyone who was even slightly different than them and their disgusting conversations about what they wanted to do to whatever girl they happened to be dating at the time, girls slowly became the only people I enjoyed being around in middle school. At the time I was a straight guy so I still would hang out with dudes just because I felt obligated, but I never really could become very attached. Men just make me uneasy in general.
What does any of this have to do with anything? Well, this aversion to men very negetively effects my body image. I feel like ugly shit on a daily basis because I base my own looks on the same impossible standards that I judge other males on and I end up missing the mark by miles.
Basically this whole post is me complaining that I am fucking disgusting and then trying to blaim men for it because I’m just a wonderful human being.